Where I belong

I notice there are certain times of year, or seasons of life, that make me think about my biological mom, more than others. This is one of them. Why I am not sure, but I do know that having Clara has definitely made an impact on how often my mind wanders to thoughts/memories of my mom. Becoming a mother brings about a whole new level of emotions, at least for me.

I also think of my mom EVERY TIME I hear this song on the radio. Every time. And then I start to cry. Not usually tears of sadness (ok, maybe a little sadness) but tears of happiness knowing that she is in HEAVEN, hanging out with Jesus, waiting for me. Heaven. How awesome is that? Oh how easily I get distracted with the day in and day out of my life and to my never-ending to do lists. Then I hear this song and I am reminded of what is important and that this world, and all that is in it, is not my home.

I have one life.

Just one.

I have no idea how many days I have on this Earth.

Only my Creator knows.

I need to live each day striving for heaven because, honestly, getting there is my ultimate goal. That's the whole purpose of being here on Earth, right? Heaven is where I belong. Not here. Not in Houston, Texas. Heaven. When this, and only this, is my focus, I know not only is Jesus smiling down on me, but my mom is, too.

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Building 429 "Where I belong" lyrics (source)

Sometimes it feels like I'm watching from the outside Sometimes it feels like I'm breathing but am I alive? I won't keep searching for answers that aren't here to find 

All i know is I'm not home yet this is not where I belong take this world and give me Jesus this is not where I belong

So when the walls come falling down on me and when I'm lost in the current of a raging sea i have this blessed assurance holding me.

All i know is I'm not home yet this is not where I belong take this world and give me Jesus this is not where I belong

When the earth shakes i wanna be found in you when the lights fade i wanna be found in you

All i know is I'm not home yet this is not where I belong take this world and give me Jesus this is not where I belong